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Love Sick

cheeks said
08:18 02/21 2009

*Name has been changed
Written by: Myself, 16 Feb 2009

Love Sick

I cough and weeze
And sneeze until I can't breathe
Maybe it's just my sinuses
Minus this heartache I feel
And those chills that somehow
Thrill the fear out of me
When I hear your voice

I catch fevers just thinking
Thinking about the choice
You insist I make
But I don't want to resist
I just want to assist
Because I don't want to miss
Out on you, Hakim*

And it sometime seems
Like I flatter myself
And what matters to them
Means little to nothing
Something I never thought I'd do
Was write another poem about you

But I guess it's better this way
Because I too used to say
Love is for su ckers
Until I fell in love
And saw how much it su cks
To be without someone
The one
You feel attached to
Almost like you're matched to
Him or her

And I concur, though I su ck my teeth
My throat is too dry and sore to speak
Who knew weak knees were a sign
Of falling
And now I'm bawling
I drop my face in my hands
My palms cupped, capturing tears

I close my eyes
Because some say seeing is believing
And it looks like I'm leaving
Snot on my sleeve and,
I don't want to shift nor lift
A part from you
My heart is too
Cold... I'm blue

And I can't explain for why, what, or whom
But when you complain I assume
What we would've had is already doomed
Yet I steady wait for fate or faith
To work things out
And when I want to shout
I bite my tongue
Numbing the obscured words
I refuse to recite

And I wasn't afraid that night,
Our plight is what frightens me
I lose all common sense
You touch me in other ways,
Hearing you whisper
And seeing your face
The lipgloss you taste
When we kiss
Is bliss and makes me shiver

And I'm not scared,
I'm just sick

Love sick

-- Edited by cheeks at 08:29, 2009-02-21